In chapter 5, Yetu goes through the motions of something that she has been wanting— to be free of holding all the memories. She describes going through the water and feeling “weightless” a feeling that is out of the ordinary for her as the weight of the memories not only dragged her down emotionally but also took a toll on her physically. Showing just how much our mental state also affects our physical state, that in order to be happy and feel free within out means we must be mentally okay to transition this feeling into the rest of our body.

Even during after her deep she reflects on what she is feeling stating, “Rememberings didn’t haunt her. She was just Yetu. She wasn’t quite sure who that was, but she didn’t mind the unknowing because it came with such calm, such freedom from the pain.”(70) Although she didn’t know who she was, the relief of not being consumed with the memories of others was freeing. The memories of others had overtaken her physically and mentally and now she is in the privilege to be left alone, away from the memories. It is a privilege to not have to hold the dark information of history, and it is a privilege to move along the day without recalling that information. It is not something that most people do anyways, we do not spend much time learning the depths of our countries history unless it is required of us.